I Yearn For You

I yearn for you,

But there is no missing you.

Missing denotes some sort of incompletion on my part…

Yet, I know I am whole;

A complete entity within myself.

And so are you,

Which is what makes this love so fucking true.

 

But there is an undercurrent of yearning.

Revealing the depth of the connection that is here;

It is alive in the reverberation that echoes with every beat of our hearts.

 

The yearning speaks to the authenticity of our union.

Whether we are together or apart,

The yearning is an omni and ever present art.

 

I desire more and more and more 

Of you.

 

Even when you're inside of me, 

filling me, 

breathing me….

 

I want to be closer 

To you.

 

I want to taste your molecules,

Dance with your cells,

Swim through your veins,

Bathe in your atoms.

 

If I had it my way I'd build a home inside of you…

I’d nest myself in your chamber and live within your arteries forever. 

 

You see, 

The yearning gives way to my devotion….

 

It is the energy with which I worship.

It is the vehicle in which my love is carried forward.

It is the force that opens us, exposes us, and magnifies what's here.

 

I never miss you…

For there is no need to.

Because you are here even when you are not. 

 

And yet I'll always yearn for you.

For that is the way I honor you.

 

Loving without yearning feels illusory and trite.

 

The yearn is the burn of the flame ignited in our hearts.

The yearn catalyzes the free-fall into the truest love there ever was.

 

 

Love,

The Feminine Heart

 

 

 

I spent my whole life searching for love outside of myself; it wasn't until I found it within me that he appeared.

"Love in The City: Tales from the Feminine Heart"

is a column devoted to vulnerably conveying the words of my heart through the unfolding of the greatest love I've ever known.

 

 

Jessica Winterstern B.Sc., M.Ed., M.A., is an intimacy and relationship coach who helps women and men discover the love they've been yearning for all their lives. Learn more about Jessica at www.jessicawinterstern.com and follow her at @jessicawinterstern and @thefeminineheart